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lackadaisicalnereidrule n. seven: don't inhale | the 100 | raven/bellamy | 270 words | PG (v. mild) | for ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
burberryblue's prompt
And no one can ever figure out what you want,
and you won't tell them,
and you realize the one person in the world who loves you
isn't the one you thought it would be,
and you don't trust him to love you in a way
you would enjoy.
forstainomylove's fabulous the 100 ficathon.
You think sometimes that Bellamy might love you. Not in a here and now sort of way, because he might be warming up to taking orders from Clarke and he might like sex with you, but he does not yet love either of you.
(Finn was supposed to love you. Finn had the eyes of the boy who was supposed to love you. Bellamy doesn't.)
Bellamy doesn't love you and you don't love him back which is probably why the sex becomes a habit so easily. It's one body with another body, nothing more. This kind of intimacy you can deal with. Sometimes, though, you'll come into his tent at night and he'll be lying awake on his make-believe bed and you'll lie down next to him and he'll just continue lying there.
In the periphery of your vision you'll see his mouth forming something resembling a smile. You'll be able to stand exactly six and a half seconds of this before you climb on top off him and wipe that smile off his face by pressing your mouth onto his, forcing apart his smile and forcing your tongue into his mouth.
For those six and a half seconds, you think he might love you someday. A distant future type of someday, but someday nonetheless.
You never let it last longer though, and that probably means something.
If it lasted longer than six and a half seconds, perhaps he would love you in a here and now sort of way, but it doesn't and he doesn't and you've always liked it better this way.
This was never about love anyway.
burberryblue's promptAnd no one can ever figure out what you want,
and you won't tell them,
and you realize the one person in the world who loves you
isn't the one you thought it would be,
and you don't trust him to love you in a way
you would enjoy.
for
stainomylove's fabulous the 100 ficathon.You think sometimes that Bellamy might love you. Not in a here and now sort of way, because he might be warming up to taking orders from Clarke and he might like sex with you, but he does not yet love either of you.
(Finn was supposed to love you. Finn had the eyes of the boy who was supposed to love you. Bellamy doesn't.)
Bellamy doesn't love you and you don't love him back which is probably why the sex becomes a habit so easily. It's one body with another body, nothing more. This kind of intimacy you can deal with. Sometimes, though, you'll come into his tent at night and he'll be lying awake on his make-believe bed and you'll lie down next to him and he'll just continue lying there.
In the periphery of your vision you'll see his mouth forming something resembling a smile. You'll be able to stand exactly six and a half seconds of this before you climb on top off him and wipe that smile off his face by pressing your mouth onto his, forcing apart his smile and forcing your tongue into his mouth.
For those six and a half seconds, you think he might love you someday. A distant future type of someday, but someday nonetheless.
You never let it last longer though, and that probably means something.
If it lasted longer than six and a half seconds, perhaps he would love you in a here and now sort of way, but it doesn't and he doesn't and you've always liked it better this way.
This was never about love anyway.
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Date: 2014-06-14 10:08 am (UTC)bless this disastrous ot3 seriously. bless.
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Date: 2014-06-24 02:38 pm (UTC)it could be so glorious.
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Date: 2014-06-14 10:31 am (UTC)In the periphery of your vision you'll see his mouth forming something resembling a smile. You'll be able to stand exactly six and a half seconds of this before you climb on top off him and wipe that smile off his face by pressing your mouth onto his, forcing apart his smile and forcing your tongue into his mouth.
You do this just to hurt meeeeeeee. I love it and them and you so much oh what a perfect storm.
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Date: 2014-06-16 09:48 am (UTC)naturally.
I love it and them and you so much oh what a perfect storm.
they are indeed.
THANKYOU, glad you like this ♥
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Date: 2014-06-14 10:42 am (UTC)Sometimes, though, you'll come into his tent at night and he'll be lying awake on his make-believe bed and you'll lie down next to him and he'll just continue lying there.
In the periphery of your vision you'll see his mouth forming something resembling a smile.
The imagery of this is just wonderful. It's not always about the sex, even if only for a six and a half seconds.
For those six and a half seconds, you think he might love you someday. A distant future type of someday, but someday nonetheless.
I love how she acknowledges that he might grow to love her, not vice versa. It's like she doesn't even allow herself to think about that possibility; oh, Raven.
That was gorgeous, and so sad (is that a given with this ship?? must be). Thank you so much for filling! <3
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Date: 2014-06-24 02:38 pm (UTC)I'm v. glad you enjoyed this, I'm TERRIBLE at filling prompts and sticking to them.
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Date: 2014-06-14 11:22 am (UTC)I LOVE how our collective headcanon for this ship is that their sex was habit forming, and something they can easily slip into because they don't love each other. And I love this acknowledgment that these two sometimes exist in this space of understanding and I think it's fairly canon that they work well together-- he believes she's pretty much magic in the things she can do and that has to be a heady feeling for Raven who's used to be smart but unacknowledged. And it's this understanding, as this fic so beautifully brings out, which terrifies Raven the most and she has to stop it at the outset. Because repeated interactions with him are teaching her that behind his image, he's a regular guy, a regular guy capable of falling in regular love, and it's so Raven that she doesn't want that because that is complicated and sex, sex becomes a habit so easily. But she's still counting six and a half seconds off in her head and if it isn't more each time, it isn't less each time, either.
I HATE YOU FOR ENABLING MY FEELINGS TIMES 1000000.
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Date: 2014-06-24 02:39 pm (UTC)+ oh, Raven, indeed.
+ But she's still counting six and a half seconds off in her head and if it isn't more each time, it isn't less each time, either.
#sobbing, basically
+ GOOD.
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Date: 2014-06-15 12:50 am (UTC)ALL THE AWARDS.
For those six and a half seconds, you think he might love you someday. A distant future type of someday, but someday nonetheless.
You never let it last longer though, and that probably means something.
JUST. YES.
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Date: 2014-06-24 02:40 pm (UTC)+ AW. blushing over here, stop it.
+ ♥
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Date: 2014-06-15 04:22 pm (UTC)Bellamy doesn't love you and you don't love him back which is probably why the sex becomes a habit so easily. It's one body with another body, nothing more.
Absolutely perfect in that painful why that makes you love a ship and hate it all at the same time. These two, they have heartbreak written all over them.
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Date: 2014-06-15 10:07 pm (UTC)good.
Absolutely perfect in that painful why that makes you love a ship and hate it all at the same time. These two, they have heartbreak written all over them.
THEY SO HAVE HEARTBREAK WRITTEN ALL OVER THEM.
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Date: 2014-06-30 05:10 am (UTC)You think sometimes that Bellamy might love you. Not in a here and now sort of way, because he might be warming up to taking orders from Clarke and he might like sex with you, but he does not yet love either of you.
Like, the fact that it started with those two sentences alone says everything (y) such a poignant picture of the dynamic between these two in so few words, beautifully done! :)
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Date: 2014-06-30 07:23 am (UTC)