What's killing me now is thinking about Lydia. Oh, this isn't killing me. In fact, I'm not affected by it in the slightest... But that's only because I'M NOT ALLOWED TO THINK ABOUT IT AT ALLLLLL!!!! NO SIREE. DON'T LET IT CROSS MY MIND LALALALALALALA I CAN'T HEAR YOUUUUUUUU....
no subject
*sobbing*